In n Out

Days keep passing like blinks of my eyes ..
They get over with screams and begin with cries ..
You never saw me while I drowned in my tears ..
All you did was confusing me .. And I've finally died ..
There's nothing more I believe will exist ..
There's nothing more that could ever exist ..
This exstasy .. I'm going to scream ..
Scream at me .. Scream .. Please dont insist ..

You left me bleeding with scars all over my body ..
They didn't heal .. You left me deceiving ..
With slits all over .. I stayed awake all night ..
Just for one call .. You kept me believing ..
You promised me you'd stay .. And you just disappeared ..
Like a dream I saw .. That wasn't meant to be built ..
I have nowhere to run .. Nowhere to go ..
How do I survive ? I just dont want to live ..

You have no idea .. I have no shame ..
And I still love you like I did before ..
I did everything to get you back .. But I lost ..
I've cried my heart out .. Till my throat went sore ..
And I'm dying again .. Watching you return ..
Go back .. I dont need you anymore ..
This life has left me .. In a room filled with empty spaces ..
I have no reason to die .. Nothing to live for ..

Why do you keep confusing me .. All the time ..
Blurring and stirring all the lies ..
Softly .. Silently .. I'll break down again ..
Just tell me how many tears should I cry ?
I left the doors of my heart open ..
For you to walk in .. When time ran out ..
I wish I would've locked myself somewhere ..
Than watching you go .. In and Out

I just wish you come back .. Once and forever ..
You're the reason I live .. You're the reason I die ..
You're all I live for .. You're the reason I survived ..
You're the reason I give .. When I break down and cry ..
How much more do you want ? What do you want ?
Where did this life take me ? What do you want this time ?
Are you happy ? Are you content ??
Are you satisfied after cursing me with life ?

If you hated me so much .. You could've killed me ..
You had all the chances .. I gave you all ..
If I wasn't around when you were frustrated ..
You should've told me .. You should've called ..
I wish I was numb enough .. To ignore all you do ..
You walk by and there's nothing I can say ..
You pretend you dont know me .. I hope you're happy ..
I never even wanted things to go my way ..

If all you wanted was to see me in pain ..
You should've been generous enough you should've said ..
You wanted me to suffer .. You wanted to see me bleed ..
I'd carve your name on my wrists .. And bleed .. And by now ..
I would be dead ..

You Lost Everything ..(a dedication to ma dead poems)

Breathing with the soul so numb dwelling inside me ..
Watching you with the eyes with tears that divide me ..
There's nothing left for me to bear .. Its over now ..
I'm stepping down into my grave .. Hoping I'll just go ..
Your memories broke my heart into pieces ..
And I'm just too weak to believe it ..
Your pictures on the walls are now covered with blood ..
I've bled all I had .. Now there's nothing that I've got ..
I gave you everything ..

I fell for once and broke and now I keep falling ..
The look in your eyes just kept my heart boiling ..
There's so much you do .. There's so much to bear ..
There's so much new .. I wish it wasn't there ..
I'm bleeding through .. I'm hurt .. I'm broken ..
I shiver when I see you .. There's so much left unspoken ..
Your letters are burning in the fireplace ..
I watch the ashes blow .. I wish I was looking at your face ..
I've lost everything ..

The tears in my eyes have frozen down ..
And somewhere in the ice .. Breaking .. I will drown ..
You'll find my body .. So cold , numbed and dead ..
For deeds that you've done .. Words that you said ..
There I was .. Standing with my arms spread .. Waiting for you
I stood through the storms .. Bleeding to get to you ..
All you did was gaze away when I told you what you meant ..
I'm screaming here .. There you are .. So happy .. So content ..
You meant everything ..

So now when you'll visit me ..
You'll see people mourning ..
You'll be smiling shamelessly ..
Waiting to see my tears pouring ..
With a box of chocolates ..
* I wish I could taste *
Dont be surprised ..
P.S : Leave the flowers on my grave ..
You lost everything .. !

Dreams Only Last For A Night

Counterstrike . . The clock stops . .
Fingerprints on the teardrops . .
Unidentified philosophy . .
Imagination on the way . .
Soul confirmations ? Give me break !
Unidentified philosophy . .

Close your eyes . .
Give it a second thought . .
Dont let go so fast . .
Coz this is all you got . .
I've heard them say . .
I've heard them cry . .
Kill a dream . .
And a dreamer dies . .
Dont stop . .
Coz this is all you got . .

Coz perfection might take forever . .
Dedication takes a lifetime . .
Its a commitment of togetherness . .
But dreams only last for a night . .
Coz satisfaction might take forever . .
Its a lifetime commitment right . . ?
Close your eyes dream all you want to . .
Coz dreams only last for a night . .

Take it easy . .
Dont mess it up . .
I know its hard . .
I know you're stuck . .
But dont let go so fast . .
Coz this is all you got . .
An image you built in a night . .
Might take you to a heavenly ride . .
You can fly in the ocean . .
You can swing on the tide . .
Dont stop . .
Keep dreaming dont stop . .
Passion is everything . .
Dont stop . .
Keep living it up . .
Coz this is all you got . .

Coz perfection might take forever . .
Dedication takes a lifetime . .
Its a commitment of togetherness . .
But dreams only last for a night . .
Coz satisfaction might take forever . .
Its a lifetime commitment right . . ?
Close your eyes dream all you want to . .
Coz dreams only last for a night . .

A story you hear tonight . .
Might be the one for which you've always tried . .
That script playing on the silver screen . .
Could be the one you write . .
Coz dreams take you on the top of the mountain . .
Its never too bad to reach the heights . .
So close your eyes . . Yeah close your eyes . .
Coz dreams only last for a night

Pieces of ME

Pieces of my heart hold hurt in their soul and cry out any life left in them in its tears.

Silent and empty moments filled with broken promises ; is where loneliness lives with me.

Numb and cold memories have become the meaning to my love and meaningless to my reality

tHe mAsK

This mask I wear,
she serves me well.
She hides my pain,
so they can't tell.

They see her smile,
never my tears.
She shows no sorrow,
she fights all my fears.

They believe she is me,
if they only knew.
That she is my mask,
My savior too.

My scars she hides,
behind laughter and lies.
She says she's fine,
but slowly dies.

Valley of Dead Souls

Through the glass I saw your emptiness…
From the distance I saw your greed was dancing in your dreamy eyes
The rapture is blinded you very deeply
Yet you are smiling to the angles

Lost in own empire
But

Can’t you hear my silent cry I hide it away from the shadows?
Can’t you see how I am drowning myself insanity?
(I see how you are watching me falling apart)

I try to reach to my stars
But it seems my bliss is fading away
Will my sear of spirit in silence hear the darkness?
Will it reach to his black heart?

Wake up in devil’s embrace
The thrill is crawling under my fears…
Like a tame in fog
Through my screaming you can hear my sins

Enslaved by their thoughtless
Behind their smiles made me to see their vain
My martyr is for them serenity

When the voices called me from the lake of tears
I follow they sorrow in their immortal hearts
With their touch made me open arms to their nightmares
I let them blind me with their lies
It’s where I belong
Always the victim to the dead world

Always touching the bottom of the darkness
(Swallowing their diabolical games)
Always my soul falls into emptiness and made it naked
(Useless endless tears weeping)
Always screaming myself in sleep
(They gain every my fragment I desire from my heart)

This is my dead world I live for eternity
This is my nightmare I dream
This is my hell I entered blindly

This is my valley of dead souls I kissed their scars
Forever and ever trapped in their arms

left aLoNe !

I am so tired being alone
Without hope
Without happiness
And without your touch
Even you are far away from me
Too long I slept in shadows
Too long I was in loneliness embrace
Too long I was shaded tears of love and became blinded
Until you touch my broken heart
Save me my love, cause
I’m so tired to live with solitude
Which is killing me inside
wake me up ( my love) with your soft whisper
to save me from nightmares
set me free cause death won’t let me flee
touch me with your love
cause I’m so tired being alone without your love
embrace me cause I want to be in your safety arms for eternity
open your heart and let me in
let me to be in your fantasy world
share with me your happiness
open your door of dreams to escape from the dead world
stay with me my love
to wake me up with your soft words
which my heart desires to melt
save me from the sorrow
cause my heart is screaming for liberty
touch me with your love
cause I’m so tired of being alone without your love
so tired that I lust to be with you
so tired that I lust to taste your love
even you are far away from me
every night in my dreams my silent whisper your name
can you hear it how is my heart crying for you?
Can you feel my sorrow for you?
Cause I’m so tired of being alone without your love
Too long I was slept in shadows
Too long I was in loneliness embrace
Too long my soul dreamed of liberty in darkness
Too long I was blinded by shaded tears of love
Until you touch my broken heart