Knock Your Brains Out

Okay so roll the tape and play what you sound like ..
You're a sick sound from the back of the stereo ..
Keep playing like a catalyst burning on a flame ..
Is this all you can do ? I dont think so ?
You seem like a package of a little more disturbance ..
Than a usual earthquake face would do ?
The clock will tick tock if you dont get going ..
So get going jumpstart! .. You better do !

Slam the door as hard as you can ..
Just get out of that door ..
It doesnt matter what you leave behind ..
Coz you've been enough of a whore ..
And I'm already where I wanted to be ..
I've seen faces stick the same expression ..
But I wanna spend a little more time alone ..
So leave me alone .. Give me a break ..

Get the gun out of your drawer and shoot me in the head .. ?
What can I do ? What would I do ?
I'll just watch you fix your mouth till you're done ..
You're sober .. What the fuck can I do about it ?
Are you done already ? You came all the way ..
Pass me a little of that champagne ..
I'm not getting drunk you bitch ..
I'm gonna knock your brains out with the cork ..

Stick your mouth to the door .. so I can slam it shut ..
I'm gonna roll the dice again .. I hope I win ..
I'm betting on your words again ..
I hope you're lying this time too ..
Damn I wish I could pose a little just like you ..
I would've got alot of a doombag attention ..
I swear you bring the heat down to the room ..
You cause alot of pressurized tension ..

Its not what you're used to see right ?
When we bark off about your back with our middle fingers ..
Sticking out to please you .. finally you'll be happy ..
Coz you're the only weird thing around ..
Dont bitch off about your looks .. you're hot ..
I just wish I was a born stripper ..
You wrap the boys around your finger like ..
Thats all you were ever meant to do ( its a sticker on you )

Get the gun out of your drawer and shoot me in the head .. ?
What can I do ? What would I do ?
I'll just watch you fix your mouth till you're done ..
You're sober .. What the fuck can I do about it ?
Are you done already ? You came all the way ..
Pass me a little of that champagne ..
I'm not getting drunk you bitch ..
I'm gonna knock your brains out with the cork ..

And shut up .. You're voice sounds just too insane ..
I cant believe you're so drunk ..
I wish I could be the same ..
What do you breathe in ? What is that ?
Coz I'm suffocating to death ..
Its getting darker and darker in the room ..
Turn the lights on .. you jackass whore !

Get the gun out of your drawer and shoot me in the head .. ?
What can I do ? What would I do ?
I'll just watch you fix your mouth till you're done ..
You're sober .. What the fuck can I do about it ?
Are you done already ? You came all the way ..
Pass me a little of that champagne ..
I'm not getting drunk you bitch ..
I'm gonna knock your brains out with the cork ..

In n Out

Days keep passing like blinks of my eyes ..
They get over with screams and begin with cries ..
You never saw me while I drowned in my tears ..
All you did was confusing me .. And I've finally died ..
There's nothing more I believe will exist ..
There's nothing more that could ever exist ..
This exstasy .. I'm going to scream ..
Scream at me .. Scream .. Please dont insist ..

You left me bleeding with scars all over my body ..
They didn't heal .. You left me deceiving ..
With slits all over .. I stayed awake all night ..
Just for one call .. You kept me believing ..
You promised me you'd stay .. And you just disappeared ..
Like a dream I saw .. That wasn't meant to be built ..
I have nowhere to run .. Nowhere to go ..
How do I survive ? I just dont want to live ..

You have no idea .. I have no shame ..
And I still love you like I did before ..
I did everything to get you back .. But I lost ..
I've cried my heart out .. Till my throat went sore ..
And I'm dying again .. Watching you return ..
Go back .. I dont need you anymore ..
This life has left me .. In a room filled with empty spaces ..
I have no reason to die .. Nothing to live for ..

Why do you keep confusing me .. All the time ..
Blurring and stirring all the lies ..
Softly .. Silently .. I'll break down again ..
Just tell me how many tears should I cry ?
I left the doors of my heart open ..
For you to walk in .. When time ran out ..
I wish I would've locked myself somewhere ..
Than watching you go .. In and Out

I just wish you come back .. Once and forever ..
You're the reason I live .. You're the reason I die ..
You're all I live for .. You're the reason I survived ..
You're the reason I give .. When I break down and cry ..
How much more do you want ? What do you want ?
Where did this life take me ? What do you want this time ?
Are you happy ? Are you content ??
Are you satisfied after cursing me with life ?

If you hated me so much .. You could've killed me ..
You had all the chances .. I gave you all ..
If I wasn't around when you were frustrated ..
You should've told me .. You should've called ..
I wish I was numb enough .. To ignore all you do ..
You walk by and there's nothing I can say ..
You pretend you dont know me .. I hope you're happy ..
I never even wanted things to go my way ..

If all you wanted was to see me in pain ..
You should've been generous enough you should've said ..
You wanted me to suffer .. You wanted to see me bleed ..
I'd carve your name on my wrists .. And bleed .. And by now ..
I would be dead ..

You Lost Everything ..(a dedication to ma dead poems)

Breathing with the soul so numb dwelling inside me ..
Watching you with the eyes with tears that divide me ..
There's nothing left for me to bear .. Its over now ..
I'm stepping down into my grave .. Hoping I'll just go ..
Your memories broke my heart into pieces ..
And I'm just too weak to believe it ..
Your pictures on the walls are now covered with blood ..
I've bled all I had .. Now there's nothing that I've got ..
I gave you everything ..

I fell for once and broke and now I keep falling ..
The look in your eyes just kept my heart boiling ..
There's so much you do .. There's so much to bear ..
There's so much new .. I wish it wasn't there ..
I'm bleeding through .. I'm hurt .. I'm broken ..
I shiver when I see you .. There's so much left unspoken ..
Your letters are burning in the fireplace ..
I watch the ashes blow .. I wish I was looking at your face ..
I've lost everything ..

The tears in my eyes have frozen down ..
And somewhere in the ice .. Breaking .. I will drown ..
You'll find my body .. So cold , numbed and dead ..
For deeds that you've done .. Words that you said ..
There I was .. Standing with my arms spread .. Waiting for you
I stood through the storms .. Bleeding to get to you ..
All you did was gaze away when I told you what you meant ..
I'm screaming here .. There you are .. So happy .. So content ..
You meant everything ..

So now when you'll visit me ..
You'll see people mourning ..
You'll be smiling shamelessly ..
Waiting to see my tears pouring ..
With a box of chocolates ..
* I wish I could taste *
Dont be surprised ..
P.S : Leave the flowers on my grave ..
You lost everything .. !

Dreams Only Last For A Night

Counterstrike . . The clock stops . .
Fingerprints on the teardrops . .
Unidentified philosophy . .
Imagination on the way . .
Soul confirmations ? Give me break !
Unidentified philosophy . .

Close your eyes . .
Give it a second thought . .
Dont let go so fast . .
Coz this is all you got . .
I've heard them say . .
I've heard them cry . .
Kill a dream . .
And a dreamer dies . .
Dont stop . .
Coz this is all you got . .

Coz perfection might take forever . .
Dedication takes a lifetime . .
Its a commitment of togetherness . .
But dreams only last for a night . .
Coz satisfaction might take forever . .
Its a lifetime commitment right . . ?
Close your eyes dream all you want to . .
Coz dreams only last for a night . .

Take it easy . .
Dont mess it up . .
I know its hard . .
I know you're stuck . .
But dont let go so fast . .
Coz this is all you got . .
An image you built in a night . .
Might take you to a heavenly ride . .
You can fly in the ocean . .
You can swing on the tide . .
Dont stop . .
Keep dreaming dont stop . .
Passion is everything . .
Dont stop . .
Keep living it up . .
Coz this is all you got . .

Coz perfection might take forever . .
Dedication takes a lifetime . .
Its a commitment of togetherness . .
But dreams only last for a night . .
Coz satisfaction might take forever . .
Its a lifetime commitment right . . ?
Close your eyes dream all you want to . .
Coz dreams only last for a night . .

A story you hear tonight . .
Might be the one for which you've always tried . .
That script playing on the silver screen . .
Could be the one you write . .
Coz dreams take you on the top of the mountain . .
Its never too bad to reach the heights . .
So close your eyes . . Yeah close your eyes . .
Coz dreams only last for a night

Pieces of ME

Pieces of my heart hold hurt in their soul and cry out any life left in them in its tears.

Silent and empty moments filled with broken promises ; is where loneliness lives with me.

Numb and cold memories have become the meaning to my love and meaningless to my reality

tHe mAsK

This mask I wear,
she serves me well.
She hides my pain,
so they can't tell.

They see her smile,
never my tears.
She shows no sorrow,
she fights all my fears.

They believe she is me,
if they only knew.
That she is my mask,
My savior too.

My scars she hides,
behind laughter and lies.
She says she's fine,
but slowly dies.

Valley of Dead Souls

Through the glass I saw your emptiness…
From the distance I saw your greed was dancing in your dreamy eyes
The rapture is blinded you very deeply
Yet you are smiling to the angles

Lost in own empire
But

Can’t you hear my silent cry I hide it away from the shadows?
Can’t you see how I am drowning myself insanity?
(I see how you are watching me falling apart)

I try to reach to my stars
But it seems my bliss is fading away
Will my sear of spirit in silence hear the darkness?
Will it reach to his black heart?

Wake up in devil’s embrace
The thrill is crawling under my fears…
Like a tame in fog
Through my screaming you can hear my sins

Enslaved by their thoughtless
Behind their smiles made me to see their vain
My martyr is for them serenity

When the voices called me from the lake of tears
I follow they sorrow in their immortal hearts
With their touch made me open arms to their nightmares
I let them blind me with their lies
It’s where I belong
Always the victim to the dead world

Always touching the bottom of the darkness
(Swallowing their diabolical games)
Always my soul falls into emptiness and made it naked
(Useless endless tears weeping)
Always screaming myself in sleep
(They gain every my fragment I desire from my heart)

This is my dead world I live for eternity
This is my nightmare I dream
This is my hell I entered blindly

This is my valley of dead souls I kissed their scars
Forever and ever trapped in their arms

left aLoNe !

I am so tired being alone
Without hope
Without happiness
And without your touch
Even you are far away from me
Too long I slept in shadows
Too long I was in loneliness embrace
Too long I was shaded tears of love and became blinded
Until you touch my broken heart
Save me my love, cause
I’m so tired to live with solitude
Which is killing me inside
wake me up ( my love) with your soft whisper
to save me from nightmares
set me free cause death won’t let me flee
touch me with your love
cause I’m so tired being alone without your love
embrace me cause I want to be in your safety arms for eternity
open your heart and let me in
let me to be in your fantasy world
share with me your happiness
open your door of dreams to escape from the dead world
stay with me my love
to wake me up with your soft words
which my heart desires to melt
save me from the sorrow
cause my heart is screaming for liberty
touch me with your love
cause I’m so tired of being alone without your love
so tired that I lust to be with you
so tired that I lust to taste your love
even you are far away from me
every night in my dreams my silent whisper your name
can you hear it how is my heart crying for you?
Can you feel my sorrow for you?
Cause I’m so tired of being alone without your love
Too long I was slept in shadows
Too long I was in loneliness embrace
Too long my soul dreamed of liberty in darkness
Too long I was blinded by shaded tears of love
Until you touch my broken heart

ma piNkO's fiRsT pOem !

i felt the ring again and again.....
so that atleast for a second i could feel his presence near me...
is it a mistake to love some one more than your life...
is it a mistake,,,,
oh god....please reduce my pain...
i cant breathe....i swear i cant...
i hope i dont lose my mind....or have i already lost it..
atleast once if he had understood my love for him....
atleast once...jus for a sec...
i dont realise what am i doing..
am i alive or am i just a wooden doll which can breathe...
i wish i could cry out aloud...
bt hve i even forgotten to cry..
oh god..
i cant breathe...i just cant breathe...
your face keeps flashin infront of me...
the twinkle in your eyes which gives me the hope to live...
the hope that one day you would come back to me...
if it wasnt tht i wouldnt have been there.,
it was you who made me realise tht i could love someone so much...
you made me realise that hope could make a person live...
i wish all this was a dream....and you were stil near me
so i just closed my eyes and...
i felt the ring once more...
i opened to see that
you stil werent there near me....

analogies of luv...added to gibran's 'love fact'

a dead crow on powerline she concurs,

watching me as i watch her.

Held captive by her pretty face,

i sit and die in my place.

she captured me with her big blue eyes,

i can’t look away but its no suprise.

she tortures me with her eerie stare,

unaware that my heart is in despair.

Months go by and we havent moved,

why does she haunt me? what does that prove?

As I stare with more detail,

she’s not a black crow at all i see,

my eyes have played tricks on me

as I unveil her clever discuise

a quite pail blue eyed girl ritch with devise.

quite afraid as i uncloak her veil she latches on and silence still.

I hold my new princess at ease and tell her i’ll do whatever she plea’s.

she looks at me and stares some more not a girl but a bird oncemore.

as she flies away i cannot catch her,

but she follows me everywhere,

as the girl is the girl,

and the bird is her love,

wich follows me thereof from above.

weN i sAid (12.3.2007 midnyt)

Wen I said wat I said

Wen I told u I was mad

Wen I got up n I left

I was so stuck on maself



Wen u broken all d pieces

Of ma heart dat I had left

I’m takin d time to sit back n write

After all maybe it was worth it



Wen we did wat we did

Wen we promised us together

Is Wat I ment wen I said

I wanna be wit u forever n ever



Wen we walked a separate away

We were both pushed out f place

Wen I lay down evrytime

I still see ur face



Well, I misuse n I miss u

n I know I cant forget u

Bt I try so damn hard

I cant seem to find refuge



Please don’t go

I still feel d same

I’ll follow her till death

n even after dat



I wanna treat her right tonight

I wanna make sure dat she’s fine

I know I messed up big this time

PLEASE GOD MAKE IT RIGHT



Whn I said wat I said

Wen u knew dat I was sad

wen u got up n u left

I cant forgive maself

sTiLL

As I pace this frozen dead ground
D cold reminds me im alive
as i think without a sound
i wonder hw i shall survive

d words f sorrow left in ma past
as unforgiving d world still turns
wat is ma future i still ask
still i must dis young soul learns

War with maself is still in pieces
leavin is hell, bt i cant stay sleepless
d dawn f life has just cracked open
d webs f words dat i hav woven

d evil f sin is under ur nose
bt d evil f lov is not exposed
Men are brothers dat fight strong wars
in a hundred years no one will mourn

Still i watch n still i see
Men dat sheds man’s blood
For the things we are, forever free
they cant lov lyk we all should

Trapped inside d hell on earth
we bestowed dis on ourselves
a peice f mind for wat is worth
Evil brought still as wealth.

bein alone !

this is ma first poem tell me what u think..


All alone,
sitting in ma room,
this dark place we call home,
laying against the cold,hard wall
hoping no one will notice me,
but its not like they ever did
thinking that maybe they'd be better with out me,
but here i lay alone,drenched in tears,
knowin dat no one will ever care abt me,
or least listen..

y do i stil luv yuh?

I Cant Get u out of Ma head
No Matter how i try
I Still luv u
Even when u make me Cry

I want u in ma Arms
I want u to be Mine
But u don't want me Now
u say it's Not our Time,

Relationships r hard Enough
But luv makes them even Worse
Luv Makes it hard to give Up
Luv is a curse,

I Hate the fact I luv u
And that i cant Get u out of Ma Mind
I hate that every tym i think of u
Ma heart flutters n Ma eyes Cry,

I don't understand how u do this to Me
How u make Me want to Die
How I dream abt u Every Night

I 'd rather Cry n mope n Whine
Than call u to get things Straight
Because somewhere in ma Heart
I know Its already Too Late ..

u must rememba dis SMS !

i hav found dis sms in ma fon..i recall d day u sent me..on dat eve,in jan07 :(

One day ull ask me : whats more important to u me or ur life? Ill say My life and ull go and leave without even knowing that u r my life

do they knw?

Nobody knows why

dat little girl cries

Nobody knows why

She as so much pain in her eyes

Nobody knows why

She wears long sleeves

to cover her arms

Nobody knows why

She causes herself harm

Nobody knows why

She killed herself dat day

Nobody knows why

She never said wat she had to say

Nobody knows why

And its to late to seed dat,

dat little girl Was she

n only she :(

I always thought u r also a victim like me , paying for " Others " Sins , but while doing that , You killed urself!

Ah! , u killed me :(

shud i?naffz!

Sometimes I Ache,
For too Many Reasons to Acknowledge,

n..
SOmetimes I Cry,
Becoz d Ache Never Goes Away,
For a Reason,
d Way u Left Me ..

~ Dedicated to NoBoDy ~-

Look I am all bleeding , Blood stained :(

Even I Cant Hide Ma Hurt

When u r in pain,

when ur heart is broken when ur tounge stop talkin,

When u needs to cry but ur eyes is dry..

U r in pain!

When u prefer to die

when ur heart needs supply

When use the morning night

when ur eyes closed cuz u feel fright

When u feel that all

when u have no soul ,

U r in pain!

When u write to express

when ur hurt progress,

when u see the more less

you r in pain !

When ur love gone away

when u feel that no way,

You are in pain ..

I Was Always There For You

Faking a laugh,

faking a smile,

Hiding the truth behind a mask,

whilemy heart is breaking into pieceswith every smile that i giveThat's the life that i liveUsed to believe in fairy tales,

thinking it's a beautiful world

Then i was appalled with the truth that this world holds

I tried to fool myself and hide behind my dreamsTried to make everything as simple as it seemsBut deep inside,

there were thousands of bursting tears,

every smile that i used to givethat's the life that i liveEnded up with a broken heart,ended up with my life ripped apart.Ended up left alone in the darkness, crying,Gave up and just quit trying...

Life is Just an illusion

Life Is an Illusion,Making the world a big confusion,Taking unreal fantasies Into a living reality,Exchanging the pain in your heart,Turning it into a shame of humility,Deceiving your eyes,Making up believable lies,Believing in your illusionsIs seeing what you want to see ..Seeking for the truth, You only want to believe,Its a state of mind Taking over your life.

philosophy of bieng transmitted

Reminiscence

* To fall in love.

* To laugh until it hurts your stomach.

* To find mails by the thousands when you return from a vacation.

* To go for a vacation to some pretty place.

* To listen to your favorite song in the radio.

* To go to bed and to listen while it rains outside.

* To leave the shower and find that the towel is warm.

* To clear your last exam.* To receive a call from someone, you don't see a lot, but you want to.

* To find money in a pant that you haven't used since last year.

* To laugh at yourself looking at mirror, making faces. :)))

* Calls at midnight that last for hours.:))

* To laugh without a reason.

* To accidentally hear somebody say something good about you.

* To wake up and realize it is still possible to sleep for a couple of hours.

* To hear a song that makes you remember a special person.

* To be part of a team.* To watch the sunset from the hill top.

* To make new friends.* To feel butterflies in the stomach every time that you see that person.

* To pass time with your best friends.* To see people that you like, feeling happy.

* To use a sweater of the person that you like and find that it still smells of their perfume.

* See an old friend again and to feel that the things have not changed.

* To take an evening walk along the beach.* To have somebody tell you that he/she loves you.
* To laugh .......laugh........and laugh ...... remembering stupid things done with stupid friends.

Nowhere To Leave The Pain

This Is My Advanced FeelingI'm feeling on top of the world!This is my turnto show the world who i am!I am A human being!This is my Advanced FeelingAnd this who i Truely well are!This is my feelingsand this is who i amwhy cant you understand meand take me!This is my advanced feelingswhy wont you let melive thesesthese are preciousthis is me!This is my worldPlease drop InBecause that Is thatthis is all i can beAnd This Is My Advanced Feelings!Please don't try and understandBecause you never will!Theses are Mine ..

Words Cant Describe How I feel

Will I ever be the same againWill I ever get past all these liesWill I ever open my eyesAnd see that you are nothingNothing but liesWill I ever be able to cry againWill I ever be able to love againWill I ever be able to sing againWill I ever be free againFree of your liesFree of your seductionFree of your lipsPressed against my unwilling lips...Do you want to seduce meInto doing what you may?Nay, I say, I will not fallI will not let you take overWhile I lose it allAnd when I am lieing on the floorScreaming for airLosing my mindAnd crying out for helpYou just stand there smilingDo you enjoy my pain?